When someone has so many life altering experiences and some how remains saine enough to write about them, never having any idea of the overall outcome can be a blessing in disguise. Each experience...ver maisWhen someone has so many life altering experiences and some how remains saine enough to write about them, never having any idea of the overall outcome can be a blessing in disguise. Each experience will allow you to grow emotionally or you will hate life and everything it has to offer.
I chose to put mine on paper, promising my mother before she died to finish a manuscript about the last ten years of my life. She was an inspiration to so many people; with a soothing, calming demeanor. For years she told me I should have concentrated on writing and my father always insisted that my brothers, my sister and I to follow our hearts and our heads to prosperous careers. All of us madse our parents very proud becoming a success in business .
I learned late in life when decisions were made before you learned or knew all of the facts you would never make a wise decision. I honestly wish being wise didn't cause so much heartache and confusion, knowing the majority of the time when you make the right decison it would hurt like hell, especially where love is concerned.
My first marriage turned into one of those hurt like hell decisions but I never looked back because I had a child to rear and I had to do whatever it took to provide for her and for years I tried to be a mother and a father to her, knowing full well it was impossible. We moved from one side of the United States to the other hoping to start a new life withou threats and verbal abuse. This was one of the most trying things I had ever done in my life but my daughter was then and now everything to me, she was indeed our miracle. When our judge told me to and I quote "get out of Dodge" I knew exactly what she meant, she was adamant about my husbands behavior and threats.
She had given him everything we had knowing full well he didn't want to ever be divorced but even that didn't console him. The court of appeals was the only way our divorce was finalized; five years of battling took it's tole on me. My father-in-law worked relentlessly to get me fired so I wouldn't have any means of support. But some how I made it through the very tough years and I knew my father was right when he said you could be anything you want to be. You just have to want something with your whole heart.
I have never been sorry for moving to California and would do it again in a heart beat, but missing my family and friends is something you never get use to no matter how hard you try. There will always be only one home and that is where my heart and my family is in Ohio.ver menos