Born in a small town in southern Chile, conditioned by having direct roots in Turkey, relationships inside and outside my family became stormy, where it became untenable to continue being myself. I...ver maisBorn in a small town in southern Chile, conditioned by having direct roots in Turkey, relationships inside and outside my family became stormy, where it became untenable to continue being myself. I started doing what everyone else was doing, including psychologically raping those who really looked like me. Without realizing it, on the way, I disconnected and forgot who I really was, and I believed the mask that he creates, just to be loved and respected. As time went by, I chose to study pharmacy, something that I thought I loved, but far from that, it gave me what I wanted the most; Being recognized and desired, no matter the way, even if it included hurting myself daily by working all day, using excess substances, and overeating. The saddest thing is that every time, I treated everyone worse, I became cruel, arrogant and disparaging towards everyone; I believed myself to be the king of the world, while I slept the deep pain that lodged in me.Validated and reinforced in this way of being, for the results that were rewarded to me by the capitalist system, I was fired again and again, since despite everything there was something that I never compromised: to profit from people's health, as I did. It was required by my profession as a Pharmaceutical Chemist. Thus, one day, the pain became unbearable and I moved away from the world, looking for myself, since I knew that life could not be only pain and darkness. Before, I was offered antidepressants, relaxants and a life of luxury to tempt me not to make this trip, and even more, I lived with the latent fact that, I knew with all certainty that my whole life until then was a lie, driven by the mask that I myself create.Even so, in the midst of it all, I listened to my soul, who reminded me of who I really was and has shown me the path that I must (and want to follow) to become who I was, and I still stay on the journey, each day closer to being myself and I do not regret everything I left behind (luxuries, superfluous friendships, people who did not love me) since, even with a cigarette and a drink under a tree I feel happier than in the palace that used to have in yesteryear.ver menos