Unconsciously, I spent many years looking to things outside of me to convince me that I was enough. A question of which I was barely aware, but insistently demanded an answer. A question that drove...ver maisUnconsciously, I spent many years looking to things outside of me to convince me that I was enough. A question of which I was barely aware, but insistently demanded an answer. A question that drove my single-minded pursuit of more.
That pursuit unfolded as a familiar story of over-achievement, ambition and unyielding activity:
- Youngest Partner at pre-eminent London Law Firm,
- CEO of fastest growing regional healthcare technology company,
- Global head of a division of one of the world's largest marketing and communications agencies,
- Senior Executive of a West Coast Private Equity Fund, and then...
I’d reached for the stars, trying to bend the universe to my will, to help as many people as humanly possible. But my journey, unwittingly fueled by my fear of never being enough - never being able to do enough - carved it’s inevitable arc back down to earth. A spent rocket failing to achieve escape velocity, temporarily defying gravity until running out of fuel.
My personal crisis led to a decision to end my life…
But what could have been a full stop in my story, instead became a pause; a pause that triggered an awakening in me that radically shifted my thinking, my relationships and released me from the suffering that had driven me to that decision.
The day I almost ended my life was the day in which I came alive.
What I went through that day was both a psychotic breakdown and an ecstatic experience that set me on my journey of learning to be, more...ver menos